Normally on January 15th, I share the story of my first major surgery after the bike accident that shattered my elbow at age 14 because that’s the anniversary date of the surgery.
But I didn’t share it this year. And I hadn’t planned to share it at all. However, there are some other things going on and I feel compelled to share those.
When I had the accident, I went through months of extreme pain and my arm was in a cast from my wrist to about 3 to 4 inches above my elbow.
Once the first cast came off about 6 months after the accident, I started physical therapy and what-not. It became clear pretty quickly that I had extensive nerve damage in my elbow, arm, and hand.
My doctors recommended surgery – an ulnar nerve retransposition, where your ulnar nerve is moved from it’s channel to under the muscles to help protect it – but I didn’t really want to do it.
We went back and forth with the doctors for a while on it, trying cortisone shots, physical therapy, and other remedies to no avail.
Sometime in mid-December, the doctor took my mom aside and told her he highly recommended I have the surgery because he believed if I didn’t, that at some point in the near future – within 5 to 10 years – I would lose mobility and use of my arm.
Obviously, I opted for the surgery. I also had a couple of other surgeries along the way.
The doctor also told my mom that even with the surgery, at some point – likely 20 or so years into the future – I could still very well lose mobility.
Well, here we are 34 years later, and it’s been slowly happening for a while. Over the past 5ish years, I’ve been losing more feeling, more mobility, and have A LOT of pain.
Some days lately the pain is so severe, there isn’t much I can do. Pain medication doesn’t touch it. Sometimes CBD helps with the pain for a while. Heat and massage only helps with pain and mobility for a short time.
I don’t know what my options are at this point. I haven’t been able to go to the doctor for the past year but I’m hoping I’ll be able to do that soon now that things are opening up a bit more again here.
In the meantime, just know that if you don’t see me around here as often as usual, I’m just trying to take care of myself.